Its odd really.... how somethings turn out. I mean, you would think, that this is how a certain relationship should work... but at the end of the day it hits you in the face.....
It would be so easy to play the blame game.... but Ive always kept from it. The way I see it, my expecations are not that huge.... I wish to be looked at, not as an equal, atleast as someone... anyone. I know I can be a child and a little difficult to deal with.... but when total strangers can go with that, even appreciate me for being that difficult... I really don see how that keeps you from ever getting to know me? I really like it that you think Im a kid... I really like it that you are protective an all... makes me feel special.... but its pathetic that you can use that as a shield.
It does not mean that everythin or any opinion I have is childish and not worth your attention.
But what amazes me is that I have not been able to make my peace with this issue after twenty two years.Its wierd, how after so many times Ive seen this happen.... I stilll expect... how every time you end up hurting me. I thought some changes in your life, others in mine, the gathering distance between us just might bring us a little close, atleast enough for you to realise that Im not the child I once was, that I am a woman and my feelings are as real as yours. But you've proved me wrong yet again.
It would be so easy to play the blame game.... but Ive always kept from it. The way I see it, my expecations are not that huge.... I wish to be looked at, not as an equal, atleast as someone... anyone. I know I can be a child and a little difficult to deal with.... but when total strangers can go with that, even appreciate me for being that difficult... I really don see how that keeps you from ever getting to know me? I really like it that you think Im a kid... I really like it that you are protective an all... makes me feel special.... but its pathetic that you can use that as a shield.
It does not mean that everythin or any opinion I have is childish and not worth your attention.
But what amazes me is that I have not been able to make my peace with this issue after twenty two years.Its wierd, how after so many times Ive seen this happen.... I stilll expect... how every time you end up hurting me. I thought some changes in your life, others in mine, the gathering distance between us just might bring us a little close, atleast enough for you to realise that Im not the child I once was, that I am a woman and my feelings are as real as yours. But you've proved me wrong yet again.