THE END.... OR ... THE BEGINNING?

I look out the window. I see her walk away. I wish that time would freeze. The jerk shakes me, the bus is moving away, she is going farther away from me, farther than I had ever imagined. I feel strange, no I am not sad, I am not happy, I am wondering instead... how come this moment that I have feared for days now has not ripped me apart?

Strangely I am calm, calmer than I should be. She is my friend, the best I have got. I could never tell you what she means to me in words.... she is worth so much more. I know this is the last Ill see her for years to come, and yet I feel no tears down my cheek?

Then I realise that this is not the end... it is our begining. True, the last four years have come to an end, but we have used that time to create an build somethin so beautifull. The winds of change may steer its wings in different direction but its beauty shall see the end of eternity.

We have planted a baby seed deep into the ground, and Ill wait and watch it grow with years. I will pray that it will stand the stronger winds, the harsher rains.

I will pray...

I DREAM....

I raise my head and look to reaching the sky,
I dream of dark secrets, deep in the ocean that lie,


I see colors like never before, in my hands,
I watch my feet dancing to tunes of different lands,

I hear a voice that wakes the sun,
I feel the pain of an unliving son,

I wish my last drop to mu mother land,
I look past every dune of sand,

I use my skills to fight undying plague,
when and where is vague,

But I dare to drean, I have no fear,
I know of great strength, failures to bear!

THE GIRL IN ME AND THE WOMAN I AM!

For twenty one years now I have been walking.... Onward. I stopped to look every once in a while, back at what has passed.... what mountains I have climbed.... places that carry emotions that make me wish I was six feet under.

I now stand at a bridge, on the other side I will be welcomed as a woman. Ill be expected to leave the girl in me behind. Once Im on the other end, I know even my recent perils will seem small an I WILL FINALLY LEARN TO LET GO...... but Ill surprise one and all.... Ill still be the girl I am ... I always will be..... I know it wont be easy ... Ill have a slip every now and then.... I know I might lose faith in my abilities and my own self.....


But it wont be very long before Im back up and I know Ill have many hands to lift me up. Every woman out there will have the strength but they will never have the courage to love with innocence like a child would..... But I will make it . My love will be pure and I will still have faith.

You want to know why? What is life pretending? If you dont have a full heart, it will never be good enough. I will love with the deepest of trust like that of a child... and if I am hurt I will gain strength from the woman that I am an learn to let it pass with a smile.